I was wrapping up work around five pm and getting ready to go teach a Zumba class (where I wouldn't have gotten my own heart rate up, promise). And went to the bathroom, and wiped and there was the bright. Red. Blood.
It's about 2 hours later, almost 3. Still bright red, not hitting a pad, but it's there about half the time when I wipe.
Of course there's nothing to do but to wait. Will it get heavier. Will I need to go in for an earlier ultrasound (nurse wants me to do this of course). Could be a sub choroionic hematoma. Could be a miscarriage. Only time will tell.
Here I am again. Trying to accept with my rational mind that high betas are meaningless. A properly implanted intrauterine gestational sac is meaningless. Waves of nausea are meaningless. A pgs tested embryo is meaningless.
I can't have normal. I can't have peace.
Oh man. My heart is so with you. All my hope and love too.
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DeleteIt's so so rough. I had bleeding with a genetic normal donor embryo at 5 and 6 weeks after many miscarriages. It rocked my world. I didn't get out of bed for a week. I am still here, third trimester. Sending my love.
ReplyDeleteThank you. It's so hard when you read about how common bleeding is, but think, there's no way I can be one of the ones who comes out the other side. And yet, there you are. So much love to you, thank you.
DeleteI had bouts of bleeding at 5, 6 and 7 weeks when I was pregnant with my now 3.5yo. Nothing will calm those fears, I know that, but sometimes it does just happen for no reason
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