I was wrapping up work around five pm and getting ready to go teach a Zumba class (where I wouldn't have gotten my own heart rate up, promise). And went to the bathroom, and wiped and there was the bright. Red. Blood.
It's about 2 hours later, almost 3. Still bright red, not hitting a pad, but it's there about half the time when I wipe.
Of course there's nothing to do but to wait. Will it get heavier. Will I need to go in for an earlier ultrasound (nurse wants me to do this of course). Could be a sub choroionic hematoma. Could be a miscarriage. Only time will tell.
Here I am again. Trying to accept with my rational mind that high betas are meaningless. A properly implanted intrauterine gestational sac is meaningless. Waves of nausea are meaningless. A pgs tested embryo is meaningless.
I can't have normal. I can't have peace.