Most days are fine. But some days.... yeah, some days, you really don't want to be the person to listen to your best friend vent about morning sickness (and you go an order them ginger candies you know are awesome on amazon.... but you secretly wish that someone else - like her husband - would have the foresight to do it instead). And those other office break room conversations, like, with the other pregnant lady who is concerned about gestational diabetes where you try to talk her off the cliff, and the one who is now entering the third trimester and experiencing back pain - yeah, I wish someone would take those for the team too.
One of my readers noted that anyone who wants to get knocked up should work in my office. It's true. There are three pregnant women here (that I know of).
Thank god I am taking a vacation in a few weeks. I think fourteen straight days of not being in this office and serving as the kindly resident expert on pregnancy will do something positive for my psyche.
When I first poked my head into the world in the middle of all our losses it was to take G to a story time at our local library. Unbeknownst to me 3 moms were pregnant, one of which as a surrogate so in my jacked brain I could only think; it's so easy for her she's GIVING them away. It was ROUGH.
ReplyDeleteOh man, there's a woman who is a professional surrogate at Niblet's school. I had the exact same reaction.
DeleteI'm willing to do janitorial...
ReplyDeleteWe'd hire you in a minute (for something better than janitorial). Maybe there's something in the water here.... besides the lead.
DeleteJust wanted to say 'I hear you' on all your recent posts. However, it sounds like, in some ways, the 'unsticking' yourself is going quite well and I should take a leaf from your book. I have been preventing for a couple of years now (BCP essential to ward off horrible perimenopause symptoms), but I'm still stuck in the past, avoiding triggers (I can barely look at a pregnant woman, let alone talk to one) and unable to get rid of any baby or maternity clothes. But I'm beginning to think I might be looking at this the wrong way round and that by facing these things, I can start to unstick myself. (Also, unlike you, I do stress eat and have been steadily getting heavier and heavier since my daughter started school last year, so it's my physical health that's at stake too.)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, good luck and know that, although I don't know you, I'll be thinking of you.
Best wishes,
Naomi
Thank you for the perspective! If nothing else, I am a huge believer in purging items and their energy from my house. Don't beat yourself up about the stress eating though - we all have our unhealthy reactions to the triggers around us. Definitely let me know how the new leaf works for you. Thinking of, and rooting for you back. xo
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